Tuesday, November 23, 2010

I will never forget this

A teacher in school once told me: "Iza hadafik tari2o so3be, ma titkhalleh 3anno w trou7e 3al tari2 el hayne".

Saturday, November 20, 2010

Like being in another world

Listen to it and thank me later. It's a Croatian song, sang by Pink Martini and called "U Plavu Zoru" (the blue dawn)

Monday, November 15, 2010

Not me - succumbing to life

I was one of those kids who aspired to become a pilot, a rock-star, a nobel prize winner, an actress who has won at least 2 grammies, the country's president, formula one driver, company owner, coffee shop owner, pub owner, some large weird space with coffe and drinks and food and pool table and darts and library and media room and all that on one place, owner... etc..

All those profiles have one or two things in common and those are, being important and having power over something or having the ability to have a strong impact or influence on people's lives. Now that is most probably because of  the superiority complexe that I suffered from, but I think most kids wanted that no?

Nowadays, I am just an employee, who works 9 to 10 hours per day, with a salary at the end of every month, no aspiration or ambition at all. And weirdly enough, I don't mind. Difference is, I still wanna be a coffee shop owner, with a pool and a library and all that... But I can do that in my future own place, my house is going to be a recreational center! Then again, this is a whole different story. For me, a job now means means to survive. And the one quote I resisted all my life, haunts me now:

"If you don't do what you love, love what you do!"

I live for nights and weekends and vacations and I dont mind doing this at all. I never thought I would reach this point in my life since, and I quote myself:

"I don't like how things go. I don't think I'm going to grow to be a traditional employee, wake at 8 am, go to work at 9 am, go to lunch for an hour at 1 pm then come back at 5 or 6 pm, be so tired to barely eat, stop doing sports and go out only on weekends when it's a lot more crowded.

No that's not me. I'm not going to fall for life classical boring life. Not me."

hmm, what planet was I living on right? A friend of mine told me, he no longer gives a high importance to building a career, as much as he cares for being remembered as a good husband, a good father and a good friend. I honestly agreed with him. I am not advocating for killing our dreams and terminating any atom of ambition, ambition is still there, it only changes from one individual to the next, and to each their own aspirations and dreams and what makes them happy.

Not all of us are going to be "Entrepreneurs", or company owners, or pilots, or rock-stars, or a hot short sports person... And it's O-Kay!

Painting by Salvador Dali - Galatea of the spheres