Sunday, May 30, 2010

2 thoughts

Thought #1
Do you believe you have the power to change people's lives for the better? With one word? one smile? one favor?

Thought #2
Why can't people be honest, why do they lie even when you specifically ask them to be honest while you were being completely honest! Some people are mere.. not exactly hypocrites, more like, stupid, immature, unwise. I am really disappointed.

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

Proving a point that I'm smart.. was stupid

I miss writing silly posts. I've been writing a lot lately and all I can say is that I'm loving it. Although I'm not having enough time to really refine my posts, the ideas are there, some I'm being able to complete and publish, others are sitting in my drafts link on gMail.

Been writing social, Lebanon related, technology related posts... And the challenge on all kinds of posts is super. For once I feel like I am starting to get a clearer idea of what I like to do, and what my major should have been. Is it too late? Can I just continue it as a hobby?

One great reason for NOT doing a major is proving someone a point. Never should you major in something just to prove a point. What was my point? I wanted to prove that girls can. I wanted to show a certain teacher something.

Where is he now? Where am I now? Does he know? If he knows does he give a shit? Sure thing he doesn't.

I always hated how men regarded women with inferiority.. talking about mental capabilities. Silly I know. We shouldn't give a damn, those who know, know and those who don't will never. For me, and I am sad to admit that, I feel like my major is my "carte blanche" to intelligence, it's like I secured that I have the minimum intelligence requirements. That's stupid.

Majoring in something just to have a proof that you're smart, is stupid.

Now to be fair. I know for sure if I had never majored in Computer Science, I would have eventually learned many programming languages and what not, on my own. I know I like it.. hell I love it. I love tracking a bug, I love analyzing, I love coming up with solutions, I love working on the pc for hours. The humble knowledge I withdraw from my current major, is definitely essential to the way I think today.

Nevertheless maybe now after a decade I feel like I am burying myself, and I need to "get out". I need to talk to people, I need to create something, I need to interact, and most importantly I want to seal deals!

This post is mostly intended as another documentation of the recent ideas I came to establish concerning my career existence (yet comments are always welcome). I don't want to identify myself with a major or a career anymore. I want to just be happy and be useful.

Friday, May 14, 2010

Overthinkin'... Or Over "thinking"

Something I wrote 8 years ago, on 13 April 2002 to be precise... and it's still valid now :)
I am OzZi's brain, ozzi tires me too much, she uses me a lot, she doesn't even give me a break, she makes me work 24/7 and she doesn'tlet me go on vacations, and see pretty things, and enjoy fun things. Always work work work, trying to get into conclusions and results, too much paranoia, and no trust... too much obsession, and no chill...
Nice to see that I.. didn't change quite a bit. I don't like over-thinking, I want to be "over" *snaps fingers* thinking.

Friday, May 07, 2010

Women from Vanity Fair and Men from Sports Illustrator

Differences and Compromises
True, men and women want different things, as much as they compromise, they're different. I see couples around me all the time, and I am not sure what's healthy and what isn't. Compromise for me, is not so bad when it's like 20%. But when you compromise more than that, you're basically losing your identity and what makes you who you are.

Although Mr. Sadhguru from Isha said that we shouldn't identify ourselves with anything because it will limit us from becoming who we will be, but that's a whole other story I will tell you about later and my experience in attending Mystic-eye.

Back to our main subject, individuals in Lebanon are losing their identity because most are not choosing the right partner.

Choosing the right partner, bettering yourself
Why am I bickering on this? It’s for the mere fact that when you choose the right partner, you indicatively improve yourself, your being. And I would like to see more people improved and happy.

Individuality vs Being in a couple
True, being happy is not dependent on others, some things have to be attained by just being on your own, but in my honest opinion, I think that what’s life and accomplishments and success if you have no one to share it with and for them to admire you for?

Our society "wrong for each other"
Do you agree that many Lebanese couples are just not right for each other? I know many of you will tell me I am judging without really knowing them, but I am talking about close couples who are around me, about the body language, how they treat and talk to each other, some have only been married for 2 years, some have been going out for years since they were young (noting that they both changed, but they don’t know how to let go anymore), some recently met, some been for 10 years...

Relationship is overrated and a myth. What about monogamy?
Why am I looking at them? Because I want to find a couple that has been together for more than a decade and still has that spark. Let’s not point out the respect thing, this is the least that should be in a relationship. If you don't have that from the beginning, then you're screwed. I want to see whether we have been brought up to believe in a form of a relationship that is a myth, and whether relationships are over-rated, and people should just face the fact that monogamy is not the “thing”.


Painting by Salvador Dali - Chalice of Love

Now Playing, which suits this post: Ziad Rahbany's "Bala Wala Chi"