Too much too little

Sometimes things appear to be enormous in your head, so important you feel you want to share with the world, but you're too tired to do so, so you go to sleep and wake up the next day to find them to be very insignificant.

Who cares right? You just have to say what's your mind, at least on your own blog. My blog is very important to me because sometimes I think I changed too much to find later on I always had it in me, and other times I would be afraid I am still the same and haven't evolved to find out later on that I have.

I went to Anathema concert 2 Saturdays ago, and attended to a local band's performance 2 nights ago. All I can say is that metal is still in my blood. I thought I left it on my hard-disk and focused more on my new liking, jazz and blues... to my surprise, I still get chills and my adrenalin increases when I listen to metal and rock. I like it, it makes me feel alive. But I have a regret of never joining a band. I know I don't have the greatest voice in the world, but it's "listenable" and well.. I feel so happy when I sing.

The other thing that was on my mind was my recent diagnosis with TMJ disorder, Temporomandibular joint disorder... still can't pronounce right. I am sharing this because I think many people out there got it, but they're always wrongly diagnosed. I just want to raise awareness about the subject. It's not just the jaw or the joint, much more pains are related to it. I identified with too many symptoms, and the doctor guessed everything just by looking at the x-ray pictures, didn't have to tell him anything. He knew about my neck and shoulders pain, my headaches, eyes pain and ears, migraines, the electric pain I get above my right eye, my bones pain, lower back and leg, lack of concentration, intolerance with direct light and loud sound.

On one side I am happy to find out there is a reason for many of my aches that no one was able to explain, also happy there is a treatment, the down side? It's costly. Several thousands of dollars! But am going for it. If that makes me a normal person again, then what the hell. Plus, the state doesn't remain the same, it gets worse, so I want to avoid clinical depression and more illnesses.

Norah Jones changed her style, I don't get why. I mean she explained why, am just pissed cause I liked her old style.

Our Fun(d) Raising project! Care to help?

Ok so, with no more introductions, some friends and I have been working on this project "Fun(d) Raising"; look at the banner on the right, yep, that right, the pink one?! Yep so, it's non-profit of course, we're doing it to collect toys for kids who aren't fortunate enough to get a gift for Christmas!

What can you do? You can donate toys, or attend the events we're organizing in which we get to raise the money which we'll use to buy gifts!

The first event is set, check it out here. If you can come and bring your friends that will be awesome, for those who aren't in Lebanon, yep you guessed it, let your friends who are in Lebanon know about this!

I am really counting on my friends, without them, I will be bowling alone probably!

p.s. If you see me looking like shit, it's because I'm literally working and studying and freelancing and spanishing and fun raising and ... argh! So eh, don't tell me I look like shit, LIE!!

Be Water

Bruce Lee's words: "Be formless... shapeless, like water. If you put water into a cup, it becomes the cup. You put water into a bottle; it becomes the bottle. You put it into a teapot; it becomes the teapot. Water can flow, or it can crash. Be water, my friend..."

I feel like water... that is evaporating.

Logical Change

When people nag over a situation, for a long time, and after experience, I tell them to die! Kidding. Ok, I tell them that just as a math formula, you keep inserting the same values for the same unknown variables, you will keep getting the same answer. So the only solution would be, change the value of one of those variables! Sure it's risky, but if you want to see change, you got to change something first.



Although I still didn't form an opinion of whether Barack Obama should have won the Nobel prize, nonetheless, he's a logical guy and here's one of his logical change quotes.

Lebanese Lie and Men don't listen

Lebanese Lie #3 (you can read 1 and 2 here)

So you're invited somewhere, courtesy is you "bring something in your hands", this is the literal translation of the Lebanese expression, which is you take some sweets with your or a gift for the house. When you get there, you give them the gift or the sweet you brought them, and the host tells you: "Oh lashou m3azbe? walaw! el beit baytik!" (which means, why did you go through the trouble of bringing something! come on, this is your house! Tu casa es mi casa!)

However, dare you not bring something in your hands when you pay someone a visit in their house, or else you will get the "ma 3inda savoir vivre, bala zo2, ma bta3rif bil ousoul!" (meaning, she lacks courtesy and social know-how)

Men's oblivious outlook

Many times you hear men say: "why can't a woman just tell us what she wants". I will make it short and straight to the point. 

1- because the woman would like to think that her man can think of ways to surprise her and to actually do an effort of doing something for her, doesn't have to be something fancy, just a new place (or an old one that brings memories), nice decor, good food, just you and her. 

2- and that is why she gives the man hints, but for some supreme out of space reason which I can't understand, men don't hear it. So really, focus a bit, she's telling you in a subtle but obvious way (doesn't take a smartpants to notice it) what she feels like doing and where.

So stop the crap that women don't tell you what they want. Just listen.

Disclaimer: Not talking about my boyfriend here, just men in general!